I do ... except when I don't

Funny how that works. Deciding to do something, doing it for awhile, and then not doing it. Commitment phobe? Or just a little ADD. Call it what you will, I’m back for another round!

A lot has happened since last I blogged.

Barkley had his 11^th birthday, Zoe Lucille had her 9^th birthday, and MaggieMay, well, I honestly think she thinks every day is her birthday. J

Work is messy. The main contractor at work lost their bid to re-up for 5 more years so while having worked at the same place for nearly 30 years, I’ve worked for …. never mind, too many different companies to keep track of. Some good friends/co-workers – also with 30 years (some more, others not quite as many) whose contract was totally separate from any others, are out of there after having given most of their adult lives to that place. Based on how it happened, and the fact that it was allowed to happen, one has to wonder – are they actually the lucky ones???

Younger daughter, with her history of major depression, and etc, is holding steady. And that, is saying a whole hell of a lot, thankyouverymuch! Last year at this time, no, even just 5 months ago, her peace of mind, her continuing education, heck, her every effort to survive – seemed in question. So to say she is holding steady is aMAZing. It’s end of the semester, end of her second year in college, and she’s on track. By the grace of God, and Larry, she is still there. Sounds like her cello isn’t fairing as well, but hopefully it will get her through juries and the final concert of the year (both happening this week) before having to be attended to. Younger daughter will also be changing roommates end of this semester … Anna will go back to Germany, and we don’t know or care where the other two plan to live. Enough said. So the 3 of them will be replaced by 3 roommates of the male variety. One is YD’s boyfriend, one YD’s boyfriend’s best friend, and the 3^rd is YD’s boyfriend's section leader. Yes, indeed, the four of them are orchestra geeks. And good friends. And no, I am not freaked out about her living with 3 guys. I already know that they treat her better, and are simply just better human beings, than 2 of the 3 they are replacing.

Older daughter is fast approaching many different things in her life. She is wrapping up her fifth year of college, and only has 1 more semester to go before graduating with her B.S. in nursing. Before that last semester she has a lot going on … she will be packing up and leaving the cozy apartment she’s lived in for the last 2 years, packing up and heading to NY for the summer to intern at a camp for kids with special needs, she will be giving a baby-shower for her BFF since grade school, participating in the wedding of another good friend, and finally moving back home to live with me for her last semester of school. We are both independent, set in our own way, strong-willed women, and we will both have to promise to try really hard to stay out of each other’s way respect each other’s privacy! OD’s prone to anxiety attacks though I thought she had conquered them mid-way through her sophomore year in college. But with everything that’s going on, they’ve gotten the best of her a time or two recently which freaks her out. And frustrates the hell out of me, but that’s my issue not hers. :-/ I am so excited for her, and indescribably proud of her. She is going to be an awesome nurse! And it will take her, literally, wherever she wants to go. I can’t say it loud enough or often enough, but … Go, honey, go! Follow your dreams, go where your heart leads. And I’ll be here, silently hoping it takes you to the coolest places so I can visit them (yes, and you, of course J ), on my vacation!

I’d go on longer, there is much to tell. But tonight is Oprah night, and the 8^th of 10 web events for the book A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose.

So I’m off … catch you later!

j.